How I Got Here

 Here I am: Second row far right (with the huge fringe and pink shorts :P)

 Here I am: Far right sporting the huge fringe again. As you can see I was just that bigger than the other girls. I was bullied by a guy called Ben. Some things he said to me are still with me now! In year four the thing that stuck with me to this day was "it would take a crane to lift you" he probably thought that was really clever and probably doesnt remember it now. But for me it is still vivid. Kids dont know what their words do. 

Here I am: Far left ha! Oh dear, this was tudor day!!

I was bullied all through public school about my weight, i was always the lil chubster. I hated it, it drove me to be seriously unconfident in my body.


I didnt eat more than the usual kid, but i suppose i had bad genes.  My parents were big. My dad isnt small and neither is my mum. Mum is incredible though, because she is now a size 12 and used to be a size 24... she lost it all on slimming world.

But yeah I was always the bigger kid. Then when we moved to Yorkshire and i joined a private schol that only had 30 kids in the whole school when i was in year 9, i was quite a bit slimmer. I had just started to form a womans body. I still thought of myself as bigger because i wasnt a stick i spose. i wish i had kept that figure!!!

This was at my bro's birthday.

 This was a school holiday im the one in the checked shirt. I would burst those buttons now! Probably not just from my belly fat ;)

 Sooo slim!!

 Slim face

 This pic was actually take while my now husband was in the room!!

I sported the old lady look for a while ;)

I got engaged at 14 to Arron, my now husband, on the 16 june, 2009. He made me feel much more comfortable. A couple of weeks after we got engaged mum started to homeschool me and my siblings.

August 18th, 2009, Arron went on a one month holiday to Kos that had been booked for a while on mission. I stopped eating, i didnt feel like it, everyday was a heart wrench for me... we had grown so close in such a short time!!! I dropped to about 8 stone.

He made me aware that I was actually a woman and sexy. So I changed my clothing style!I highlighted my new assets :P I sometimes shocked myself... like when arron took me shopping in next and he bought me some skinny jeans... SIZE 8!!! I was too embarrased to say i was a size 10 or maybe a size 12 for such tight fitting clothes!! But i got home and tried em on and they were a bit tight, but they fitted! They became the trousers i wore every day i could, i loved them!!

Yeah so you get the picture... i could wear whatever i liked!! I never thought myself of skinny at the time,  just was enjoying my new found figure!! My mum fed me well, home cooked meals every night, no snacking and nutritious food. I put on a little over the months just getting back to comfortable shape where i gained more curves and just was a lil more healthy. I was feeling good... I had Arron we loved each other soooo much and still do. i felt great... real good. I was comfy and happy... perfect!
This is an engagement photo from around August 2010, the month before the wedding. I still have that top, it covers fat up easy! But yeah my arms were much smaller then. I am around 10 stone here.

Then the wedding day:

On the honeymoon we had KFC practically every dinner. We  had French Fancies everywhere and i ate badly!! Put on about a stone from that :S  I was settling into married life and eating a bit more junk than usual! Yeah, I had got to 12 stone by december. Thats when i got desperate. i started trying to diet. I tried doing the slimming world diet in my own way and without going to a club. By then i had lost my confidence, i didnt like doing certain things with my husband and i scurried away of he went to lift me up. Heres a pic of my weight by then at christmas:

Yeah, I'd piled it on :/. I started the gym in january. i worked out like crazy. No difference, just weighed 13 stone now. The 'fat had turned to muscle and muscle weighs more than fat'. I believed this for a while. But I still felt just as large and though my tummy could tense easier it was no good.

 So thats how i got here. Lets change this!!!